NO, I DON'T WORK HERE

To work in clothing store for examples Uniqlo and PDI is one of my dream jobs .

I enjoy greeting people with the brightest smile on my face ,
" Welcome to Uniqlo "

And people will come and request for my assistance.

eceh , kemain fefeeling important sangat .

I never work for any yet but I hope I soon will be :)

So, these happened last week .

Situation 1 :

As I entered and wandered in Uniqlo , 

yes of course in my kemeja and slack ,

a customer approached me ,

" Hey, do you work here ? "

I smiled and responded with a no .

Situation 2 :

I was busy making up my mind which shirt to buy in PDI and a pregnant kakak

with a fierce face suddenly asked me,

" Yang ni takde display ke ? " 

" Takde kot kak , apa yang ada kat sini je " 

" Yang ni saiz M ada tak ? "

" Sebentar ye saya tanya pekerja yang lain " 

I swiftly walked to the pekerja and whispered to him ,

" Akak tu ingatkan saya kerja sini , awak boleh tolong assist dia tak ? "

I , as always , smiled and continued shopping .

Twice , 

that would be a good sign .

I one day would work there :)

WORRIES AND WHAT NOT

I had my final session of English tuition class last night ,
with them ,
the PT3 candidates .

I at first was worried of me ,
 - not being able to deliver well .
 - unsure of the format of section D
 - and if I didn't really cater their needs .

I hate that , I would hate that .
But it turned out - in a way
that left me being worried more .

I repeatedly asked the groups of them ,
 - what would come out .
So I spent the final night focusing on what they shared
and discuss further on format of speech .

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They were not ready ,
They were worried ,
They were somewhere else .

Some struggled - with even the introduction for speech .
some , didn't even understand the title of the sample question given .

I felt sorry .

I tried my best ,
I hope somehow it will help them
and Allah with ease everything for them .

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Realising that last night would be the last ,
so I brought my son out for a while ,
so we would have more time to spend sharing ,
and learn more about English and what not .

" I have to convince myself that I can do it , I hope I can make my parents proud "

said him , Iqmal Azizi .

Good luck everyone !
The best of luck from me ,
the nobody that loves you guys - Saidina of SMKSS .

BUT FIRST, LEMME TAKE A SELFIE

I was asked this question last night

by a 13 year old neighbour ,

" Why do you like to take a selfie ? "

so I responded with nothing but 

" I just love the idea of that "

and then I whispered to myself

" Me ? Selfie ? Sorry I don't take a selfie . I take SELFIES "

I'm no Kardashian but Kimmy did take selfie to a higher level

that it gives confidence to others to take more selfies .

Selfie is a virus - contagious but whatever , 

enjoy your front camera to the fullest .

Haha .

OUR CONVERSATION

I had a really tough day yesterday .
I suffered a long , stressful day .
I was weak , I became negative .
I was restless , I became angry .

But that was not all .

As I was trying hard to stay smiling ,
I failed , after each second .
That I ended up being quiet - in silence .

And all the other thoughts chimed in and decided to
put more burden - in my tiny stupid head .

from sunrise till sunset
I suffered .

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Then I decided to just proceed with my weekly routine ,
teaching English language every Monday and Tuesday night .

I was worried that my negativity would affect others ,
but I tried hard not to.

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So , the class ended .

I straight away searched for my favourite ,
for he is always the one I look for
when I am there , whenever I am down or even at my happiest .
I just need him .

So I did .

He was worried about his PT3 ,
I tried to calm him .
It's always that way ,
It's either I share or he shares .
And one of us will support one another
with sweet words that motivate .

" Hari ni saya stres dekat ofis "
" Sir saya takut nak ambil PT3 "

We began our conversation that ended with ,

" Thank you son "
" I'll always be your son "

That conversation that we had -
that calmed me ,
and I hope I helped him to .

InsyaAllah .
Thank you .

I THANK BLAIR WALDORF

MY DAILY DOSAGE

so,
this is how i spend my every morning .

every time i reach the office ,
greet my desk ,
switch on my computer ,

and yes ,

this is a must ,
to accompany my morning breakfast ,
before i get myself busy with work loads.

thank you ,
it was hakim who introduced me to this .
i laugh , i smile , i laugh again ,
i flashback ,

everything is there !

so , it's your time .

http://www.buzzfeed.com/

STORY OF MY RIGHT SHOE

i currently changed to my new pair of shoes .
leather .

at first it hurt so much ,
still , only less .

every morning is a struggle ,
my frozen shoes ,
my soft and manly feet .

but that's not the story i mean to tell .

my right shoe ,
it squeaks .
i wonder why .
always , everyday , it squeaks .

my runway mode ,
my model catwalk ,
     - and the shoe chooses to squeak along its way .

that's the story of my right shoe ,
which i have not yet found the reason why . 

LAST NIGHT IN D310

flashback of what happened
that final night i spent in D310
months ago ,
i had to leave , i was force to leave .
it was my time to go .

i was packing up my stuff ,
and tears ran down
like a waterfall .

i shouted in tears ,
" why ? why ? why do i have to leave ? "
" why can't you just let me stay ? "

i miss my delta ,
i miss that house ,
i miss my room - and all that happened .

i cried ,
i cried ,
i cried .

i don't want to do it all again ,
but i sure hope that others would feel the same too
about delta , about loving a home .

WORDLESS WEDNESDAY #1

LE CONVERSATION WITH HAKIM

hakim and i were busy doing our job
yes , the given task .
which i am now facing a very hard time to stay focus.

i repeatedly said - chanting loudly ,
" i love my job , i love my job , i love my job "

*hoping that it will motivate me to complete the job faster*

then hakim quickly replied

" you love your job so much , that's why it keeps coming . "
" you should say " i hate my job " and then it will stop "

well that made sense .
thanks hakim .

SHAVE - O - LATE

a great way to begin my first day of October
( which's supposed to be Rocktober )

i woke up late , yet i kept myself calm -
i was so calm, so calm
that i even decided to just shave my misai and janggut .

yes ,
i tend to shave it ,
not when it's needed to ,
but when i really feel like doing it .

late to work but that's it ,
i had loads waited for me - this and that .

glad the day finally ended
*but still i have to settle everything tomorrow .